Today was my 50th Birthday and Maximus allowed me to lead a Beyond so that I could take some extra time to discuss somethings that I have been pondering as I approached this milestone birthday. To go along with our monthly theme of Vulnerable I took the opportunity to share some struggles as well. With that we moseyed.
Warm up of SSH, Imperial walkers, Squats, Mountain Climbers, Merkins, and Plank Jacks
Moseyed to Rite Aid parking lot(some chatter about too much running, but I ignored it).
Sharing time #1 – Shared with the Pax that I feel like 30 year old me would have thought that 50 year old me would be “further along”. Further along Professionally and Financially, Further along Spiritually and in Family. In 2001 I was recruited to Charlotte for a position with a new company, for a salary that I thought would be my ticket ahead. I had great plans that I could do this for a bunch of years, make a bunch of money and then I could check out and go do something that I wanted to do , maybe full time ministry or teaching. Within 1 year it all blew up, I was demoted for not doing a good job, salary was slashed plans were gone. 17 years later we’re still feeling the affects.
First circuit – Partner up – Partner 1 does People’s Chair Partner 2 does a lap, then flip it. Next Partner 1 does Plank, Partner 2 does a lap, flip it. Next Partners do 100 Merkins as a team, 1 runs I does Merkins, flip it.
Sharing time 2 – Felt like I would be further along spiritually. 30 year old me would have thought I would have gotten past my need for man’s approval. I would have thought that the sins that tripped me up back then would be conquered and pride & lust would no longer be an issue foe me, but they are still there. Felt like I would be further along in family & parenting. My plan was to be an empty nester at this point, but here I am with a 7th and 9th grader still at home, and t top it off I’m not particularly better at parenting then I was when I 30.
Circuit #2 Partner again – Lap #1 Partner 1 does Al Gore Partner #2 does a lap. Lap #2 Partner 1 does Flutters Partner 2 does a lap. Lap #2 Team does 100 Big Boy Sit ups total while 1 partner runs.
Sharing time 3 – The truth is that when I look at my life with clear eyes I can see that my life has been Blessed beyond measure! I have a job that I mostly enjoy, and work with great people(shout out to Royale) and I am well compensated. I have a beautiful wife of 26 years and we have a great marriage that keeps getting better. I have 5 awesome kids who are healthy and bring me great joy, and sometimes frustration. To add to it I have found this thing called F3 and a group of friends and Brothers that I never even knew I needed! To see my 50 year old life s anything but blessed is ridiculous.
Off to COT for 2 minutes of Mary
Final share – What I have found is that the only times that I get down about where I am at 50 is when I look around me at others and I compare myself to what my perception of them is. This can lead to pride but for me it mostly leads to despair. What I am trying to learn is contentment as Paul describes it in Phil. 4, whether he had much or little Paul was content. The source of this contentment is found in Phil. 3 where Paul shares that all of his achievements, any possession he may have or any legacy he may be able to boast about , all of is it is worthless, or as he calls is a big pile of manure, compared to knowing Christ. Paul says he has 1 aim, and that is to Know Christ!! The secret Paul learned is that all he need was Jesus and if he had Jesus he had all he needed, and if he had Jesus, he could never lose him so therefore he could always be content. In whatever amount of years I have left let this be my aim; that I may know Christ!!
Thank you for the opportunity to lead.